Faerie Magazine Issue #24 is almost complete and ready to print. Our goal is to have this issue to our subscribers by the end of January 2013.
If you'd like to know more, please read on.
Faerie Magazine is experiencing the same financial climate that most small businesses are facing. Funding is almost impossible to find, even though we have worked with the Small Business Administration all along, pre-approved for loans, etc. It would have been very easy to close the doors, wrap things up and walk away instead of facing the expense of competing in the current marketplace.However, Faerie Magazine provides something special (as many others have also expressed), something that should remain. I am committed to keeping it going and instead of making small leaps and bounds to that goal, I have decided to take a non-traditional and much broader approach to overcome the obstacles and open the doors to those who are interested in being a part of the solution.
On a personal note, I would like to explain what is happening 'behind the scenes'. Suffice to say that my personal life took a nose dive in the beginning of 2012. Almost losing a child almost took the wind from my sails. It was at that same time that payroll ran dry and it became just me, working all aspects of the business. No sane person would attempt to run this company alone, but having no choice, I plugged away. Surely I could do this! And plug away I did. Next issue was due soon, I had to hurry.Three weeks later, in the beginning of May, my Mom became suddenly ill and wanted nothing more than not to be in an institution. I gladly cleared the only place available in my home, the Faerie Magazine offices, for her hospice care. Four of my friends came over and within 4 hours, the offices were cleared and my Mom was brought to my home with full hospice equipment. My Dad also joined her, in the clerical office, which was also cleared quickly for this purpose. Nothing in the entire world mattered at the time, I was watching my Mom slip away and was powerless against this fate that would forever change the way I viewed the world. The computers and office materials were stacked in boxes, in corners, walkways, etc. There were moments when I could work on customer service, do a bit of design work or editorial but my heart was heavy and I could have not been more disenchanted. My Mom remained in my home until she passed away on July 3, 2012. For those of you who are close to your Moms, or have had similar experiences, you know the overwhelming heartache and how this can impede how we operate. For me, after all was said and done, and the Faerie Magazine offices were put back together and life needed to resume as usual, I was still disenchanted.
I made many attempts to complete the next issue, our subscribers were waiting and this wasn't fair to them. They paid money for a subscription and I was expected to deliver the product. And so I would. I spent many hours compiling and designing and found it very difficult to stay on track. I became master of avoidance. Certainly I could complete this issue and get it out quickly! Oh, and aside from the compilation of the magazine, there was the matter of advertising, selling it, collecting it, etc. It seemed overwhelming and worst of all, I noticed that the magazine was not the product I was trying to put out there, it was the product of a disenchanted woman, creating something alone. And worse, advertisers had no money, how was I to pay for the print? I simply had to try harder. So try harder I did.Once I noticed that so much time was passing, I knew I needed help. I was still very upset about losing my Mom and now I was overwhelmed. I thought about writing an email to subscribers to let them know what was happening but then decided that nobody wanted to hear my sob story, just keep going and work harder. Or, find a way to work smarter. I went to a psychiatrist and got medication to help me focus and move forward. I needed to manage my business effectively. I talked to our distributor for Barnes and Noble, who reminded me that Faerie Magazine is a very successful product. They have always wanted many more copies of the magazine than we could ever afford to send them. I also would occasionally talk to subscribers who called the office and always heard the same thing, "Please don't stop making Faerie Magazine, just let us know what is happening". With words of encouragement, I plugged away.
There is also the matter of Mermaids, and Pirates Magazine, both waiting in the wings.
How could it possibly be that after 7 years of successful beautiful publications, I could be in such a position? Each day of losing time meant the goal slipped away even more. I had to make a decision. The decision was that Faerie Magazine must go on, I know that it has meaning and value to many. I proceeded to look for funding, ways to pay people to do what I currently wasn't able to do. In the meantime, I would print Issue #24 and at least our subscribers would be assured that this was not a hoax, a rip off or an ill intent, as subscriptions were still available on our website.
I found a funding program, downloaded the 28 page application and began to fill it out. But oh, that meant I had to make sure the tax returns were up to date, and 2011 wasn't. Oh. No money for the accountant. Mind you, this is all my problem, my business, my responsibility. It was overwhelming.
I reached out to a few people who were all willing and happy to help, and for no pay - simply to help achieve this goal of moving forward. So wonderful are they!The most revealing fact that came with the turmoil of 2012 is that I am the one who holds the vision of what our readers want. In my absence, there is nobody who can/will take my place. It is a bit charming yet very overwhelming. When I became psychologically unable to produce enchantment, there was nobody to take my place. Given the right circumstances, I could have overseen the project but not fully participate. I was stuck in a maze of overwhelming emotion and sadness. This must change as I am a human and the business must go on.
Additionally, I am well aware that to compete in today's marketplace, Faerie Magazine must and will be available digitally. Had I borrowed the funds and printed a disenchanted version of Faerie Magazine, it would have been a bad move for two reasons. 1. Not the real Faerie Magazine and 2. Any funds put forth (as meager as they are) must ensure growth.
SolutionsI believe money is to be earned. I am contacting 25 businesses and artists concerning advertising, asking for support, a win-win situation. I have a few other ideas about how to raise money to pay for some of the business matters which must be addressed such as customer service, submissions, accounting, etc. As I move forward, I will post progress on this blog. I will keep everyone informed of the nice things that are happening as I reach out for solutions.
I am working my way back to feeling the enchantment and so excited to share the empowerment that comes from endurance and resolve of one small business, actually one person, who is committed to conquer the seemingly impossible. I am open to ideas of empowerment of any kind.
If you'd like to be part of the solution, please leave a comment below or email me at Kim@faeriemagazine.com. I am seeking positivity, encouragment and empowerment.
To our subscribers, you will be rewarded for your patience and tolerance, I promise you this.
To those in the industry to might be able to help, I can, in exchange, provide a portal to a very large demographic of readers who are sincere, compassionate and kind. Our readers are looking for enchantment, and they are patiently waiting.And to my Mama, who instilled all the proper components of being a good person, and who taught me that I can achieve my goals if handled with integrity and honesty, I will make you proud!